Did you know that a precipice is not simply a fork in the road? I thought a precipice was just a crossroads, a decision making time. But this is not the case.
A precipice is a "cliff with a vertical, nearly vertical, or overhanging face."
So, being at a precipice is kindof a dire situation. Or at the very very best, it is excruciatingly exciting. Moving forward means that things are definitely going to change.
But the change may be devastating.
A precipice is a leap of faith.
We used to be so good at jumping.
Concord tries to jump. He stands on his tiptoes and propels his round little body forward, with a laugh in his throat and sheer anticipation in his eyes. It is pure thrill for him.
He always lands in our arms.
Buz and I used to be all about the leaping.
Not so much anymore.
Falling hurts. We are old and tired of getting hurt. Skinned knees don't recover. Broken bones take years to heal now. We are okay with watching the kids jump. We have moved past chasing the feeling of flying. The truth is we were falling. And we prefer to walk these days.
You can see how far you have come when you walk. Also you can see what is in front of you.
After much prayer and conversation, Buzzy has decided to step down from his position as teaching pastor of Sanctuary. He is still pursuing his Master's degree in seminary, but he has started looking for another job in a church. I think our time with pools is coming to an end. I have committed to spend this school year as a school nurse in Santa Ana, but if I go much further with this career, I need to go back to school. Captain has just started in school, but we feel like if we wanted to make a change with him, this next year might be the best time to do it. Sooner rather than later. Concord is along for the ride.
Staring at the precipice that we can see in our path.
We are walking slowly.
Taking our time.
We can sense the impending jump, the precipice on this road.